Life goes on….

A friend of mine contacted me to ask why I hadn’t written here in a while. It’s been in the back of my mind…. but the words won’t come easily. I’ll give it a go…. It is fair to say that in the 6 months after diagnosis, I hit a very dark depression. I seemed

How obvious?!

Something that keeps bugging me, is how the hell I failed to get this diagnosis much earlier. It makes no difference, what’s done is done, but still I kick myself. T missed out on a lot of the early years support because of me failing to get this sorted sooner. He’s due to start school in September,

The Autism Bubble

I’ve just purchased T’s first special needs buggy online. He is still currently in his baby buggy, but it’s used so much that it is only fit for the skip. I’ve got many photos of him in it as a chubby, gurgling, happy little baby. Well, I say “happy” because the pushchair was something I

Welcome to Holland

I quickly wanted to share this piece. It is already quite widely known, and about 4 or 5 people have sent it to me over the last few months. But it is spot on, and it never ever fails to make me cry, no matter how many times I read it. So for those who may

Believing in myself.

A cheesy title, but I couldn’t think of another way to put it. This post may be disjointed a little, spilling thoughts…. In an email from Canada from a dear friend, he says that he believes T chose me to be his Mother and his guide for this life. Regardless of beliefs you may have, the words


I use this blog as an invisible therapist. It’s like blowing up a balloon using all of my anger and hurt, and then watching it drift off in to the sky. Or a message in a bottle, making it’s way to those who will finally read it. It helps me enormously. I believe in being

Going it alone.

“God breaks the heart again and again and again until it stays open” – Hazrat Inayat Khan Out of  the hundreds of self help, pick-me-up, life inspiring quotes that social networking sites bombard me with daily…. this one leapt out at me. I’m not a religious person, however neither do I sneer at the use